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"Incision and curretage of chalazion on Left upper eye lid"

This was the operative procedure for me today...

so what is it?

basically  you could call a chalazion a hardened stye..

and what is a stye? a stye is an inflammation in your eyelid probaby caused by a blockage in your pores..

causes: dirt, sebum, blockage or even frequent sleeplessness or staying up late

as for the cause of staying up late, it's actually because frequent "staying up late" could lower your immune system, cause you to be slghtly immunocomprimised and eventually when little infections such as these happen, chances of fighting the infection lowers and when it comes to worst it ,like mine, it won't erupt,.. it subsided but it formed slowly and swelled again when I had to stay up late again.

So, It's completely a hassle.

not being able to apply make up due to the fear of further blocking it,  enduring the occasional pain,the induced astigmatism and not to mention insulting remarks and questions from your collegue, which is the wost.

it's part of your emotinal and physical aspect to feel good about yourself, so I bet anyone who has the same condition, the money and the chance would have it also removed...

so i finally got the courage to have it checked up

Few months ago, before I had it checked, I also made my own researches about it.

From scientific explinations to myths.

Among the myths I've encountered was the one that said, to remove  a chalazion, you have to actually rub it with a golden ring.

I don't know what exactly that was supposed to mean , or if the gold had any mineral property to suddenly decrease the size but I did it anyway. And because it din't work, I was thinking that the gold, probably referred to "gold" it's self as a form of money. Well, it's not exactly expensive, especially for rich people, but for the likes of me and since it's not a medical emergency, It's not that cheap as well. You could say it was a cosmetic emergeny though.. hahaha, ,..for your own physical improvement.

Anyway, so as I've said, months of taking medicines like anti-infectives and pain meds did nothing. I've also waited for 2 months interval after taking those meds to wait if it erupts and still, none of that worked. I'm quite disappointed in my self not being able to prevent this cause I am a student nurse in training. But damn, with a school , schedule and a hospital like ours, you'd really rather not  bother. (geesh, shoul I explain?)

So, the day finally came, and that was this morning.

I wasn't nervous to start with. I was rather irritated. Just irritated for a number of reasons, and it really didn't matter why.

I had my best friend and my mother to accompany me, I refused their offers and decided really to take only one , since I know it's an icky thing and hospital operations take ample of time especially the billings and i didn't want to disrupt their busy schedules, but they insisted anyway and it's nice to have someone to talk to once you're there. You'll know what I mean, when you get your self there.

A long wait and unresponsive OR nurses gets one anxious. Not to mention, I'm ashamed at how slow the procedures of billing and transaction is at our hospital. tsk. hasty. but nevertheless, i had to wait.

Finally, the doctor arrived and I wanted to get it over with. I was imagining the pain last night and a few months ago, but nothing prepared me for the pain that I was about to go through that time.

"the doctors"

...the opthamologist, the resident doctor, the assistant doctor, the circualating nurse and the student nurse

The student nurse was very helpful and useful in many ways. She provided many helps and assistance all through out the procedure. I wonder if she was making a surgcase. Well, she was very good, indeed. :D

The circualting nurse was all that minor cases needed except ofcourse for the opthamologist himself. she was...hmm good enough, fast, long haired, and..,in blue. hehe no comment for the circualting nurse It's hard to be on job when the doctors tease you for no reason, and I guess she survived that, but a little faster perhaps? But it's nice being served by your nurses once in a while especially when you met them in wards as your heads when your still a student.

The doctor....doctors..whaat?? I thought this was a minor case?? why 3 doctors all of a sudden??? the 1st was the optha himself, the 2nd was a resident, but did he really needed 'em? I'm sure he can do it himself. But the 3rd? what was he for? The entertainment and preparation of micropore tape I guess.. hehe .. He was very handsome though. hahahaha :D I guess women are not the only one who has an entourage. male doctors have themselves.  :D

"The procedure..."

I lay on the OR table with a spotlight similar to the ones you see in police interrogations. The gown they gave me was very useful. very useful... as to why blood was on my arm...

The  resident doctor had to prep my eyes with alcohol. I had to shut my eyes closer and tighter just as not to get the alcohol in my eyes. I failed, cause it ran down my mouth and I tasted it. I wonder how he'd feel If I gave him a facewash and a mouthwash made of alcohol, instead of it's usual contents.. hmmm..wouldn't that be nice doctor?

(don't get me wrong, I have no hard feelings for him. It's just tell me what you're putting and that it's gonna sting, if it's gonna sting!  we usually use betadine for prep so I didn't think they'd use alcohol this time.)

the lights directly hitting my eyes were getting me sleepy, I had difficulty looking up when the doctor told me so. The dropped anesthesia did nothing, I just teared it away and that painful moment came...

"the anesthesia"

Horror. Horror.

excruciationg pain.

Horror.

I had to hold my breath to bear it. i can't exactly describe it. The needle penetrating your skin was nothing, but the content pushing your upper eyelids and the mass was so excruciating. 12/10 pain scale.

Luckily, the pain was immedaitely gone after he stopped instilling the anesthesia.

But I guess, the cut was more tolerable than the anesthesia it's self. Should have jsut cut myself.

It was a simple elective minor procedure done withing 20 or 15 minutes.

After the simple cut, the cheesy, white substance oozed, Yes oozed. I can imagine how happy the surgeon was scraping the lids of my eyes. It was fascination for them. an obsession, to scrape oozing substance. Why? well because it's just fun and exciting. I would love to see it myself as well. hehe..

they plazed the gauze..

I was bandaged on my Left eye after the procedure...

"done. patient survived." phew!

a number or meds: an anti-infective, pain med, and an opthalmic solution.

"the billings"

doctors have it easy. the professional fee was all they needed and their done. But the hospital billing was too much.

not the amount though, the processing is what I meant.

go down here, wrong spelling there, questions here and there.. haay...as if im not used to seeing it.

but I'm done. Not quite a bad experience. just quite... But it certainely took my time.

I just got my eye patch removed an hour ago, and there's still quite a lump left. I'm quite worried If he announces on monday that I have to undergo it again.. I hope it subsides eventaully.

So now, my eyes look quite normal again. I hope. quite painful, but tolerable. And me? .. Just hoping.. :D

I've been waiting for the last installment of this chapter for like months now..
and finally I got a glimpse of it..
the finale...
(I suppose)

hehe...


I'm a huge fan of shounen mangas, especially D.gray man, fairytale and shaman king.
And lately I've been checking on SK (Shaman King) monthly for chapter updates.
It's geekish yeah I know (pardon the term) but hey, It must be an addiction!!

SK as I've said, is one of my favorite. The manga and the anime adaptation is quite different. So, if you've watched the anime and liked it, you may probably read the manga as well since it's way better than it.

Chapter updates of mangas are predicateble, especially for shounen mangas, Naruto and bleach have frequent updates, mostly weekly if not once in two weeks.(Maybe, it's what I see, since I read those updates too) But SK, is quite unpredictable,mostly once a month and If you get lucky twice a month or after a few days from the release. The reason?I'm not sure why but perhaps it's due to the translation problem. SK had been on hiatus for the last...??? 1 year?? haha I'm not really sure but ...the author FINALLY decided to finish this manga. FINALLY.

So daily (as in daily), I check for updates in this manga, perhaps thrice everytime I log on to my pc. In the morning, (explains why I'm up so early in the net) afternoon and in the evening (explains why I'm still at it, when it's late)

It must have been an addiction. No wait, it IS an addiction.

To prove my addiction, I'll tell you about stuff you may not know about SK:

*As a start, you may know  that SK's anime ended with Hao probably dying and even ate Yoh's soul to gain more power or perhaps a piece of his missing self, but actually none of that happened in the manga.

 *There's also a few chapters entitled, Osorezan revoir in the SK manga and it's mostly about Anna Kyoyama before and Yoh when they were about 10 y/o with Matamune, Hao's cat.  (It's really a nice story, especially If you want details about Anna's past)

*Another added chapter in Sk is Mappa Doujin and Relax.. (about Hao mostly)

*Remember the ainu boy, Horohoro? He has Kororo as his oversoul or spirit ghost whatever you call it but do you know that Kororo was once a girl who had feelings for Horohoro and she died in the mountains and became a Koro Pokkuru?! hehe.. well she is.. wanna know that? It's in chapter 288: Falling Damuko

* Lyserg obtained Hao's spirit of fire.. hehe.. poor Morphine..haha

*Shaman king ended with 285 chapters but Takei finally updated the new installements to the chapters and renamed the new installements: Shaman King Kang Zeng Bang

* Funbari no uta is continued in SK's final chapter, and you'll finally be able to connect it all. (fans probably know what I mean)

* In Funbari no uta, Tamao Tamamura adapted Anna's style, as Hana Asakura (yoh and anna's son) said that she was scary. (She pretended to be anna, some sort of like that) hehe...

* Hao and Yoh talk casually a couple of times: one was at a onsen, at a cafe and at the same room where they tried to sleep but couldn't cause Yoh was uneasy and Hao can't sleep since he had reishi and he can hear Yoh's thoughts.

* Hao thinks Anna is someone else and probably have some hidden powers, since he can't read her thoughts like he could to anyone else. They have a lot of things in common too , like having reishi. By the way, according to the manga, reishi is the ability to hear someone's thought. (sort of)

* Ren's adult form is so bishounen! hehe he's so cute! And he will have a son, that looks like him, hehe... kawaii!!

Okay, enough! It must be a boring stuff and there's more, way more!!! But I'm not telling it here,..it's tiering me..and you probably don't care, but I don't care as well... It's not boring me..hehe.. and it's my blog anyway...
So as I was saying, the final chapter of Sk has finally arrived, though it's not yet translated to english, I couldn't help but read it.? read it? read it?? haha, watch it?? read it??? 0_o

Onemanga's and Mangafox's latest release is chapter 295 of Kangzeng bang. But a few raw scans of volume 27 with the ending is already available. Just type it in google. But ofcourse, it's all raw, meaning it's not translated yet.hehe..

The pages also included aldut versions of each characters, fast forwarded from ages 14 to 22 hehe.. (i'm talking about yoh) ..aside from that there's also a "bonus manga" that I got somewhere, and i think it's probably from the final fan guide that Takei made. He named it Mentalite. It has a bonus manga where Hana's already a teenager, and Ren's son is a little older. I guess 6? hehe dunno. The hanagumi are also in the Funbari Onses and a few hints says, Tamao is actually the mother to Ren's son. Dunno really, it's all in Japanese and I can't read it!!  But it's hinted there... hehe.. and I might be wrong at the same time...hehe..and finally there's also this girl who looks like Anna, though it looks like she's rougher and it seems she comes from patch village from her outfit.. hehe..

So that's it! The long wait for this manga has almost ended, I'm just waiting for the english scans but it's quite the same...hehe I know the ending...(spoiler..hehe) All I can say is that it moved me to tears.. huhu..It's all filled with action but it's funny and tricky untill the end.

...and Hao?? ,,hehe .. no, he never died like that in the anime, that's too brutal!! He's too nice and just misunderstood to end that way. So Takei-sama made a better ending for him, you'll see..  **,



All in all, it was one great work Takei-sama! two thumbs up for that!!!
...if Sk will ever have another installment for Hana, surely I'll be looking forward to that!! hehe...


haay, speaking new semester.. *_* patay...
haay, ....

Such a phrase as "freedom of religion" used in political means and unitary purposes would be it's self a contradiction.

The problems in a country promoting freedom of religion is that if a country would adhere to its' means, the country would as well be divided by different religons and it's beliefs since allowing "freedom of religion" would also mean encouraging diverse beliefs from each religous conviction. Further more, freedom of religioncould as well give rise to discrimination in such a way that  thoughts about "which religion is superior" could possibly arise. Thus, promotion of religion could make a disarray in the country's unity.

The danger of religous fantacism is that being too much fused with one's religion, he or she could depicit acts of idolatry instead of true worship and reverence which most commonly happens n religous sectors where instead of true worshipping their Gods, they depicit a manic adoration towards their religous leaders, thus imitating and loving them more than they should. Also, in these instances, they forget that thier religous leaders are only God's tool of ministering to them.